I don’t have that many friends that are pregnant or have children, and the ones that did have babies before me are not really much help now. They forget the symptoms or can only relate to their own experience. I have tried explaining to my husband that now in my 3rd trimester I have this “lonely” feeling. I have no reason to feel lonely; I have plenty of friends and family… but I do feel this lonely feeling. I think it’s just a combination of hormones/fears/hopes/dreams that I have never had before, and technically my body is doing this all alone.
I also have the fear of the unknown. I started working on a workers permit at the age of 14 my freshmen year of high school. I have throughout that time only brief periods of time go by without a job. I have worked for 15 years and now after the baby, I will stay home. I know I am extremely grateful for this chance and opportunity… but I’m kind of bugging out. It’s all part of the unknown – exciting but a bit scary as well.